I had a notion earlier this spring. I’ve dubbed this notion my “No Regrets Summer”. Paradoxically, it’s not about indulgence. In fact, it’s surprisingly practical. Every winter I wish I’d already knit certain things so that I could just wear them. But then in summer I get distracted or plan for Christmas or something. And I don’t knit slippers for myself. Or a thick cowl. Or a big shawl so I can stop walking around with a blanket folded into a triangle and heaped around my shoulders. (That’s just so not classy.)
And so I’ve made a list of items I keep regretting that I haven’t already knit. One of them: black socks. I really want black socks. I wear black pants. Black shoes. Black shirts. My hand-knit socks are sometimes (alright, often) a surprising element. Fine for at home or under boots. But sometimes a girl just wants warm, woolly black socks.
Today the summer has arrived. It is our last day of homeschooling before we take our spring break (as we always wait until spring arrives because I don’t want a moping set of us in a world that is moping its way through March or April). It is a day when I finished the two projects on my needles. It is a day when the leaves are finally coming out.
And while I’m excited about knitting black socks, I’m not excited today.
I’m thinking that it might be time to indulge myself. I don’t do that a lot. I like anticipation, so I tend to ‘when, then’ myself. When X and Y are done, then I can watch the new episode. When I’m done on the treadmill, then I can open the package. (In fact, I often put the package next to me on the treadmill so that I can get little anticipatory shivers when my eyes stray over to it.)
And the thing is, I promised myself I could play with this yarn after X and Y.
And X and Y are done. Z, too. And I may just play. It’s a tough choice. The excitement of beginning the “No Regrets Summer”, or the pleasure of a soft, silky, cheerful set of stripes?
Or. OR. Hey! I just had a thought most alien: I could start both pairs today. Oooooooooh.
Forget that. I’m not faced with a choice. I made my decision. I want it all.